YES, I KNOW I JUST UPDATED, BUT NOBODY HAS JOINED YET, SO I'M BORED. ANYWAY, IF ANYONE DECIDES TO BE AWESOME AND JOINNN ANYTIME SOON, FEEL FREE TO DO THAT SURVEY THING FROM THE LAST ENTRY I POSTED TWO SECONDS AGO, AND FOR NOW, JUST COMMENT AND POST ONE OF YOUR EMBARRASSING LJ ENTRIES FROM THE PAST! [I'M MOSTLY DOING THIS TO SEE WHAT BRENNA USED TO PUT ON LJ, LULZ, BUT ALSO FOR FUNNNNN]. IT DOESN'T MATTER IF THE ENTRY ITSELF IS IN CAPS LOCK, SO YOU CAN JUST COPY + PASTE IT. HERE'S MINE.
I've already updated today and I'm supposed to be checking over my homework due tomorrow that I forgot about, but... I feel like spilling my guts. I'm completely depressed right now. I just told my dad (who was trying to get the printer working for the homework) I had to go to the bathroom and went up to my room and sat there and cried for like half an hour. I do that sometimes, but increasingly often more recently. I'm afraid now that my parents will notice I'm not perfectly fine. Who wants their parents to realize their weakness? Not me, anyway. I'm too stupid, or proud, or something.
Here's the thing: I'm deathly, deathly, deathly afraid of being alone, and I have nobody. Aaand my worries are completely superficial. [...] I'm no artist; I will never be able to effect the lives of anyone except myself, and well, I'm not going too good a job of that either. I've only made myself worse. I'm crushing my dreams here and ruining the person I might have been because I'm messed up that way. [...]
Much emo love to all of you,
LOLZ I AM MADE OF LAME AND FAIL, BUT I WAS ONLY 12 AT THE TIME, SO IT'S SORT OF MORE FUNNY THAN LAME... TO ME. [BY THE WAYYYY I AM STILL AN EMO KID BUT LIKE I THINK I PREVIOUSLY MENTIONED I JUST DON'T TALK ABOUT IT ANYMORE LIKE AN IDIOT. FUN TIMES.]